Why do the people you continually try to defend or the people you waste sooo much energy on trying to believe that they are a better person then they are, ALWAYS end up being the ones who disappoint you the most?
Not that anyone will see this. I wish I could say this to a few people’s faces. Or on Google+ or on Facebook….but I usually can’t stand it when ppl post stuff like this. So I will just say it on here. Where no one will see it.
People are dumb. People who claim that they are your friends. People who you defend because you know/think that they are good and that they don’t mean to do stupid things. People who drain everything out of you because you’re constantly praying and begging that they straighten out. People who take everything they have for granted. Those people are dumb.
And I’m sick of making myself sick for them. I’m sick of wasting my energy on them. And I’m sick of defending the stupid decisions that they make. I’m done. Next time they do something stupid….I’m not going to pretend I don’t notice. I’m going to let them know how much they are hurting everyone who cares about them.
They won’t listen. They never do. But at least I can stop worrying about them.
Bachelorette Trip Epic-ness
I bet people can’t wait until I’m actually married because they are sick of me talking about it haha. But I am so excited right now. Today is Sept. 22nd. Which means that today we are exactly one month away from the wedding. I cannot believe it.
Tomorrow will be 46 days until my wedding. I cannot believe that it is so close. I am so beyond excited. I cannot wait to be with my best friend every single day. As it gets closer, saying goodbye gets harder. I can’t wait until we don’t have to say goodbye like that anymore. It’s crazy to think where I was three years ago. Or where I was before I met Manir. Life is so different. So much better. Exciting.
My dad is having a really hard time letting go. He’s been acting weird with me for a while now, and when I finally confronted him about it, he said that he was preparing himself; distancing himself. That part makes me sad. Saying goodbye to my family. I know I’ll be in the same city and same congregation even, but everything I’ve known for almost 20 years will change. A lot.
Weddings are insane. I’m so glad that I will only be getting married once. I don’t think I could handle planning another wedding again. IF this system goes on long enough for my sister to get married….yeah….no….it’s not going to last that long.
I had my bridal shower last month, and on the 24th of this month is my personal/lingerie shower. This Friday I am having bridal portraits done after I have a trial run for my hair and makeup. So flipping excited. I can’t wait to put on my dress and have my hair done and makeup.
It’s all so surreal. Manir and I have been waiting for this moment for almost 3 years now. And now that it’s here, we can’t even believe it’s happening. Everyone has been so supportive. Everyone has been nothing but kind and generous to us. It really means a lot. I can’t wait to share this day with everyone.
So, the count down continues till we reach October 22, 2011.
My bridal shower invitation and wedding invitation. Surreal. Still. Ah.
Oh dear. It finally happened. And I can’t believe it still.
This past weekend we went on a “family” camping trip to Charleston, SC. We left on Friday. Saturday was completely normal. We went to breakfast. Went to the market and did some shopping. My brother and his wife (Philip and Michele) were meeting us there, and they were going to get into town around 3. Philip made dinner and tour reservations for us for 4 pm. So we meet them outside of the restaurant and are waiting for the carriage tour to pick us up. All of these empty carriages were going by so I was confused as to why none of them were ours. Philip tells me he reserved a private one. That confused me because the private ones can only hold 4 people tops. But I still didn’t think much of that. After what feels like forever, I notice this massive horse coming and its pulling what looks like a private carriage. Philip says “Yup there it is”. As it gets closer I notice Manir sitting in it with roses, just smiling and waving. I couldn’t believe it. At this point I knew why he was there. But I was in complete shock. I kept saying (according to everyone else, I honestly don’t remember what I said), “OMG What the heck?!” I get on the carriage and we ride around the corner and I see Manir’s family walking down the street. I still couldn’t believe what was happening. Manir pulls out the ring box and says “So are you ready to spend the rest of your life with me?” After I say yes, he hands me the opened ring box and just stares at me. Haha. I told him he was supposed to put the ring on my finger, which he did. Then he tells me that the ring has been in my family for a long time. Originally this was my Great-Great-Aunt’s diamond. It was then handed to my Great Grandmother. The diamond was then given to my Grandfather. He then put it in a different setting and used it to propose to my Dad’s Mother. The ring I have is the same exact ring that my Grandmother had. It’s so amazing. So special. She was the one that wanted to give it to Manir to give to me. My Grandmother is Catholic, but she recognizes the fact that to Jehovah’s Witnesses, marriage is sacred, and she felt that the ring should go to us. It’s gorgeous. Never will you find another ring like it. Ever.
I am so happy. Honestly, I wouldn’t change a single thing about how everything has happened in the past 3 years. Manir and I tried soooo hard to do things the right way, and I sincerely believe that we have Jehovah’s blessing. Our parent’s couldn’t be more thrilled with everything, which if you knew his parents, you would know that is a miracle in itself. Everything has gone just right. I know things are never going to be easy, but I know that if we continue to put Jehovah first in our lives, we will be happy.
And so now the wedding planning begins. I’m actually scared haha. I don’t like planning things. But it’s gotta be done. The wedding is going to be in the fall. This fall. We are hoping for the end of October, but we will see.
I’m in the process of posting a bunch of pictures of this weekend on Flickr.
No, I’m not engaged yet. But this is almost just as amazing.
Manir and I have bought a HOUSE!!!!
It happened really fast. Originally we were going to live in an apartment. We even filled out an application for it and everything. But then we passed this house that was cheap but needed a little fixing up. Long story short, that house was already under contract. So the searching began. We figured that if we could find a house cheap enough that our mortgage would be cheaper than having an apartment, we’d be living even more simply. Last Tuesday we looked at this cute little house in the city of Concord. Perfect location. Perfect size. Perfect price. We decided that we needed to move on it ASAP because deals like these go fast. By Wednesday evening we had put in an offer, but found out there were already 2 offers on the house. By Friday afternoon we found out that the other two offers had been rejected. By 4 o clock yesterday, we found out that the house is ours!!
I don’t think it has completely set in yet. It’s crazy. I set myself up for disappointment because I didn’t want to get my hopes up and then not be able to get the house. I’m so excited though. We will close on the house sometime in June. In the mean time, we get to figure out what furniture we want, how we want to decorate it, and all that good stuff.
Anyway….Just wanted to share that.
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